The Daily Richual - I’ve been hiding a big part of my story

The universe is always conspiring to work FOR you, to bring you into greater freedom and alignment so you can make the biggest impact in this world. And recently the truth of this became so clear to me in an area of my life that I’ve been hiding for most of my life. 

This episode was taken from my daily coaching program, The Daily Richuals, where I was sharing what went on behind the scenes when I shared more deeply about my story recently. I talk about the fear that I carried about how it might be received, especially by those closest to me. 

Through synchronicities that only the universe can explain, I realised how I’ve been keeping my message so small and I’ve been hiding a big part of my story. Now I see that there is so much power in sharing my story in a more transparent way and there’s no need to hide. The things I feared would happen didn’t happen! 

I talk about the newfound freedom I have to share deeply from the truest version of me and the healing that has flowed from this place.

If there is a part of your story that you’ve been hiding or keeping small, allow time to do the work. The universe will provide you with opportunities for healing and show you that you are so much more ready than you realise. 

I hope this episode inspires you to be the truest version of yourself, to share your story and unlock freedom in your own life and the lives of those around you. 

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Previous episode mentioned:

Playing Big No Matter What: How to Rewire the Narrative Around Money

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Transcript

00:01

Welcome to Flow State Business. 

00:06

How's everybody doing? I got my nails done today got a little evil eye, which I love. And we've kind of gone this like silver pewter, Chrome. It's a thing, I love it. The girls, they're at the nail salon, they know me so well now they're literally like chrome again? Chrome all the way and last nail season, we did pink, and that is just not my colour. And I very quickly painted over it and made it a dark, dark dark colour again. And then I felt more like myself. So I realised I'm either old dark, or super shiny metallics. That's my palette. I'm good with that. But there definitely is something happening here where I'm wearing a lot more colour this week. And I'm not mad about it. I feel like this is a good week to do this. We've entered into all the depths of Scorpio season. We're going to go in there colourfully and do that.

01:04

Okay, so I have a topic tonight. It's a day of synchronicities and big portal openings. And this is definitely a day that has been a long time coming. And I have been ignoring it and ignoring it and ignoring it. And I have to share it with you. So this morning, I wake up to my podcast episode going live. today's podcast episode was about the narrative that you write around your money, the narrative you write around your money. I recorded this episode a week or two weeks ago, when I had this day of just one episode after the other I was in so much flow. So I didn't really know when this particular episode was going to drop. My podcast team just rearranged that for me and that was really awesome. And as you all know, I record, I create, I share from the heart and from the soul. Most times, I actually even forget what I say on the episodes. And my team, they take it and they distributed, they make Instagram reels out of it. They put it on YouTube, YouTube shorts, they do all the things, the podcast episode went out. And the clip that my podcast editors had found was literally the clip that talked about my money story, why I'm so afraid of it, the decisions my father made, running and hiding, being chased by bad people, nearly being kidnapped, and held for ransom, and why I believe that money was bad. And why I believe that money really was the source of all evil in this world. And that was the clip that they clipped. I talked about so many other things in that episode. That was the clip that they clipped. 

01:10

And a few things happen because of this one is, I feel like I have been able to share so much on the podcast, because I fully fully know that it's my little hermit cave. It's the place that I can share very freely and very openly. And at the same time, I know that my parents would never ever had found out about this. And I was so afraid that they were going to find out that I was talking about this because, you know, good girl vibes, don't stir up the pot, don't dig up things that have already been healed, all the things. And why they scared me was because I know that they fully follow me on Instagram. And that clip went everywhere on Instagram on reels in post. I know my dad is a subscriber on my email list. Oh my gosh. And I just had this moment where I realised how much I had been hiding in the podcast. It's so funny, isn't it? Like how transparent I am on the podcast. But you'll very rarely find me talking about it anywhere else. And the people that really know me is because they listen to the podcast. And they know that like maybe some of you are like, Oh really I didn't realise you shared it and you didn't share it anywhere else? Like I only shared it on the podcast. And I kind of maybe alluded to it a little bit here and there. 

04:24

So that's been so interesting today because literally all day I have been hiding feeling so afraid because of two people in this world, my mum and my dad and to a further extent kind of wider family wondering what they would say about that. And it's funny because I've literally been waiting by the phone not really but I've had the phone on me all day, wondering if they are going to call me. I've been waiting for a call from my mom. I'm like she's for sure gonna call me and say some things or my dad is for sure gonna message me and say somethings. I was like waiting all day in trepidation like this is going to happen. And it didn't, nothing happened. People have been DMing me saying is really cool that you've shared that story, it means a lot to me. And people on Instagram are like, holy shit need to listen to this episode. But no calls, no calls at all, when I was so worried about how it would be received. It's interesting, isn't it? 

05:27

And that's when I was like, okay, and then the new Taylor Swift album, which I will totally consuming again and again and again. I think I definitely was one of those people that contributed to the Spotify breaking, because when the album came out, I was like, dowload it. Anyway, there's one song, and her lyrics is like, "it's me, I'm the problem, it's me." And I realised that for so long, I have kept this whole message so small, for the fear of how it would be received by two people on this planet that obviously I care so much about. But in the greater scheme of things, nothing actually happened. Like, I'm the one making a bigger deal out of it, when really, the message is so much bigger than worrying about what they're gonna say about it, right. Here's the ironic thing. I then jumped on a call with my private client. And she said to me that she wrote this blog, read the blog, it was absolutely magical. It was story at its finest. And she said that her 80 year old grandmother called her saying how upset she was at the blog, and she pulled it. And not only that, the 80 year old grandmother whose matriarch then corralled some other people in the family, who have now also come on board and said, how dare you share that. And here I am going, Oh, my goodness, it's like the best blog that I have ever, ever, ever read. It's so impactful. The message is so deep, it's so meant for this world. And she goes on to ask me and she says, have you ever experienced that?

07:10

And I just had to laugh, because the timing of the universe. And I just said to her, oh, my goodness, like you have no idea. I'm experiencing it right now. Right this very second, minus the actual cold, but just all the shit that goes on in your mind around keeping your message so small. It's just so fascinating. No matter how much work you do in the mindset, no matter how much work you do with resilience and telling yourself, yes, like, I'm good, I've got this. It's all good. There stuff like that, which happens. And it was just a major, like I mentioned earlier, gate opening, vortex opening moment. But I just went, Okay, I had to have this moment of realisation because when I saw the clip, I literally was like, oh fuck, like, that was literally my thinking. And then I freaked out about it. Michael, and I had a big chat. Then he said to me, which is such a thing that I think guys just say they mean the best, but it just comes out the wrong way. And he said these words, I think you're just making it a bigger deal than what it is. And I was like, that's not what I want to hear right now. So I got really upset about that. And he's like, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, like, funny, isn't it? And it was true, he was right. I was making a way bigger deal out of it than it needed to have been. Because nothing actually happened. Like, the worst fears in my head actually didn't come forth. And in fact, my dad sent me some meme about something else, like totally unrelated. And then it crossed my mind like, oh my god, maybe he just hasn't seen it yet. Or maybe he's just over it. And he knows that it's my story to share. 

07:35

In many ways, this has been a really, really big significant moment, because I actually already feel so much lighter about it, like I can talk about it more, there is more permission there. I can put this in my book, I can share this more with the world. It's really cool. And I just really wanted to share this because it was just like, like this the whole time I've been holding in and I've been so scared and how it would be seen and reacted by the world. And if anything, all the conversations that I've been having in the day that my podcast goes out is usually the day that my DMs blow up because people are commenting and they're saying I listen to this and this is what I got from it. Like it's really beautiful. And my whole DM is just filled with holy crap like yes or something similar has happened. My money beliefs are similar, blah, blah, blah. But I actually go on to talk in the episode about how I realised like my day to day life is so different because I've changed the narrative around money and more practical examples in there. 

09:58

Our minds like to travel and oftentimes not to resourceful places. It's true, right? So I don't know, there's just moments like this where you just go, like I'm deciding the very episode that was about changing the narrative has really manifested right now in this real moment for me, where I get to change the narrative of how I talk about my money story. It was all very meta. And then my client asked me about the family acceptance thing. And then I had a podcast interview just before this, and literally the episode, it wasn't meant to go this way, and I don't know if she's in Dubai so I don't know how many hours she has been awake now. Because then she just quickly like, asked me a question. And she's like, how do you deal with the acceptance of family and fear and showing up anyway? And I was like, Are you kidding me? What an incredible synchronistic day today, it's just super symbolic. I've been writing my book so much lately, and I've been toying with the idea of putting more of that story in. Michael has been like, pretty much to saying if this story in full is not in your book, it is really doing the book and injustice. And I'm like, Oh, God, like Don't say it like that. And he's been working on me for some time to actually include the story. And then today, when my media company, literally clip that I messaged them on Voxer straight away. And I was like, Guys, I have to give you context around this, and they just said, well, that was clearly like the juiciest, best part of your story. And we've never heard you share it. Why haven't you shared it in this context this deeply before? 

11:43

So anyway, all these things and I just thought I have to share it with you guys. Because this is the moment. Let this be the moment that I realised this. And when it shows up in the book, and it shows up in other platforms online now and I'm really talking about it. This is the healing as well, like I feel, I really have been such a hermit with this side of my story, because I haven't been ready to share it. Like that's a big aspect. If you're not ready to share it then just allow the time to do its work. But I realised after today, and it just kind of happened without my choice being clipped and everything like that. I realised after today that I am ready that I have been ready for a long time. And these are the moments that the universe kind of provides you to show you that you are so much more ready than you realise. And these little nudges and there's a little push. And you know, if I think about the patterns of when I have experienced quantum leaps and walking through portals and walking through moments that really stretch and help me grow, it's the moments where it doesn't really come all sweetly wrapped up in a bow. But it's like when my employer said I couldn't post a blog because it was against company policy. That was me walking through a portal of realising I am ready to be an entrepreneur. And there's moments where I really thought I wasn't ready to face like launching bigger products and having to charge more and more. So I really kept my pricing really small for so much longer than I should have. And then somebody had come along saying, you know, I really would have signed with you to work with you at this level but you just didn't have anything on offer so I just went with somebody else. And I was like, Oh my gosh, that was the moment I realised No, I am ready. 

13:25

Now this sharing the scary story in my case, and realising this not a big bad monster waiting on the other side, you know, so life works for us, the Universe works for us, it always happens for us. Everything is conspiring to work for us, there is so much goodness in the air, there's so much calibrated to the divine purpose that we're here to do and serve and have, right? And it gets to feel natural and supported and calm and connected and loving. And you know, the energy that you can tune into is that it doesn't have to be a big deal. So in Michael's wise words, I get it. Like maybe I'm just making a bigger deal out of it than it needs to be and that to be successful and to share the truest truest of truest things about ourselves, which are really scared about sharing for whatever reason. What if you got to just tap into the energy of it just doesn't need to be a big deal. That works for me. There's something about that energy where I'm like, yep. And it passes. 

14:35

Oh, I feel this so much. Thank you for sharing this today. It's such an important reminder. Take it off the pedestal. This energy of the pedestal, I had put so much on the pedestal, like how I'm supposed to brand myself and what I'm supposed to do, how I'm supposed to figure it out whatever energy it is that you're putting on this pedestal and you're going once that part is worked out, then I can keep going. Do you realise how small we are in the universe and it's just like this little. Okay, let's just flick that off the pedestal and see what happens. Ah, that was really good. So, today was a really beautiful day of working through that. And now realising I'm free, I feel free. I feel liberated, I feel lighter. I feel calm. I feel happy. Like now I just want to go ahead and write that chapter in the book, which I think is absolutely something that I'm going to be doing tonight. So ah, all right. That's it. Thank you so much, ladies. Bye. My love's